So...morning went for tennis and squash again with Jian...KherShin...Chiyin and Huilin again...while walking to medan selera for breakfast...huilin fell down...awww pity her...after makan went for squash...took alot of stupid pics at the end...hahaha...

after squash...Khershin's mum fetch us back...but i asked her to stop me at Jusco cuz i need to buy earrings for my sister =.=ll mum asked me to...bought dee then i just walk around...felt bored...and if i go home i'll be even more bored...so i went to watch movie...ALONE!!! after that head back...wallet dry dee ~.~

tata~

OMG!!

NOT AGAIN?!?!?!?! @.@

Suddenly...dunno why...VERY INTO PIANOOOOOOOOOO!!!

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MAKSIM MRVICA - Flight Of The Bumblebee is AWESOMEEEEEE!!!!

trying hard to learn Bella's Lullaby now...

once again...i'll try to move on kay? for you..

Great...for the 1st time...my phone din ring AT ALL!! not even a message...sigh...i hope you'll message me...

Ahhhhhh~

i'm sick :(

last night din sleep at all again...went to school freezing the whole freaking day...recess stay in the classroom...din eat...lunch too...aih...

i tried...but i cant...sorry

Another sleepless night :'(

Without you...............................

~Without you.......

~i cant smile

~i cant sleep

~i've got no appetite to eat

~feeling cold everyday

~tried to concentrate on studies but i cant

~i've got no mood at all

~i cant do anything right

~i cry every night

~i feel like dying

~my heart is hurting me like crazy...feel like throwing it away

~i din talk much cuz no mood

~i keep listening to All You Wanted cuz its your favourite song and it reminds me of you

~i keep listening to Time For Miracles cuz i really hope that miracles could happen

~i keep seeing back our pictures whole day and every night

~keep reading the letters you gave me

~every night sit on the roof...thinking of jumping down...and look at the sky...wondering you

~there's ntg in my mind except you

seriously i dont know what to do without you...you're everything to me...you mean so much to me...its fate that brought us together...but the foolishness...childish...immature of me made me lose you...i cherish every moment we had together

i'd always love you~

Lifeless without you

Last night din sleep AT ALL...my eyes were open wide wide...tried to sleep but end up seeing back the photos we took...i din eat also...no appetite...at school when recess...go sit under the hot sun...cuz i'm feeling cold...after sitting 20minutes under the sun...i din sweat at all...sigh...everything's just not right without you

All that left is memories :'(

Thank you Sim Yuen...for being with me for a year plus...you showed your love to me...cared for me...be with me when i'm alone...you gave your every 1st time to me...but all i did was breaking your heart times and times again...i'm useless...sorry for bugging you these few days...begging for forgiveness...you gave me alot of chances but i never appreciate it...its all my fault...i brought this up...i shall not regret what i've did to you...Edmund you're 1 lucky guy...treat her perfectly...and you can feel that you're the luckiest guy in the world...if you ever hurt her...i wont let you go...sigh...i know you wont...only brainless ppl like me would hurt her...her heart is very very fragile...she can cry very very easily too...surprise her more...she can smile whole day for just 1 surprise...well you're so much sweeter and caring than i am...suffering from insomnia...every night almost 4am only can sleep but have to wake up at 6am de...after what happened tonight...i dont think that i can sleep anymore...and and...i even jump down few times from those monkey bars and bang my head to the wall...i cant feel any pain...but my heart is freaking pain...i cant stand it...i feel like throwing it away...i wish you two will last forever...thx Sim...thx for being so caring for me...i cant promise you but i'll try...*forceful smile* thx for the cd...and everything...i'll treasure it well







Mui...thx for cheering me up...i'm sorry if i fuhin you when you were cheering me up...but that time i was so depressing...dont worry bout me k? i'll be fine...just need some time...*forceful smile again*


and friends...i love you...everyone...gor...jie...mui...and my twinny...and *you*

Yeah (love is pain)dedicated to all my broken hearted people. One’s old flame, just scream my name and I’m so sick of love songs. Yeah hate damn love songs. Memento of ours… Lies!

A late night and rain falling down. I bring you back from my memories. I promised myself I would be fine without you, but I can’t help it. I take in liquor which I don’t even know how to handle trying to fill my empty heart. A day without you is too long. I pray that I may please forget you (that’s a lie).

Without you happiness cannot be found in me. I can’t even shed any tears. I don’t want to live anymore.

Yeah, this is bullshit, it’s pissing me off. I’m going crazy in thoughts of you. I want to see you, but I’m being told that I can’t, that it’s all over (I’ll be right there).

I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

I dedicated my all into this song for you (other people probably don’t know). By myself, without anyone knowing. (yeah, those words I said were lies). A loner left in the midst of it all. In my pocket is the breakup letter that’s all wrinkled and folded up in my pocket, hey, (and my habit of calling for you and wondering where you are). I’m gonna change, I’ll laugh everything off from now on.

I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

Oh oh oh oh oh, I hope this is all a dream. Oh oh oh oh oh, because I only add up to this much. Drop that babe, I still can’t forget you. No I don’t think I ever will, even ’til the day I die, yeah. Did the scars I gave you heal? I’m sorry because I never got to do anything for you.

I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

i'm sorry but i love you

Buckcherry - Sorry

Oh I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren’t the same
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

This time I think I’m to blame
It’s harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It’s never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry.
I’m sorry baby.
I’m sorry baby, Yeah.
I’m sorry.

i know its too late

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love Lyrics

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

 

 

 

my heart will keep bleeding non stop

When You're gone~

Avril Lavigne – When You’re Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I’d need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I’m alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I’ve never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
 
[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I’d do, I’d give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]



 :'(

Which shall I use to suicide??

there's no reason for me to keep living on

This song makes me cry...repeated it for 100+ times :'(

"All You Wanted"

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the time comes
I'd take you away

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah

[x2]
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

its your favourite song..

Feelings~ this song is exactly how i felt

Time for Miracles Lyrics

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just wanna be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

Baby can you feel it (feel it)
You know I can hear it (hear it)
So can you feel me feel you....

You know it's time....

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love

You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on

Oh I ain't giving up on us

 

 

 

i'm not giving up...i'll wait