Another sleepless night :'(

Without you...............................

~Without you.......

~i cant smile

~i cant sleep

~i've got no appetite to eat

~feeling cold everyday

~tried to concentrate on studies but i cant

~i've got no mood at all

~i cant do anything right

~i cry every night

~i feel like dying

~my heart is hurting me like crazy...feel like throwing it away

~i din talk much cuz no mood

~i keep listening to All You Wanted cuz its your favourite song and it reminds me of you

~i keep listening to Time For Miracles cuz i really hope that miracles could happen

~i keep seeing back our pictures whole day and every night

~keep reading the letters you gave me

~every night sit on the roof...thinking of jumping down...and look at the sky...wondering you

~there's ntg in my mind except you

seriously i dont know what to do without you...you're everything to me...you mean so much to me...its fate that brought us together...but the foolishness...childish...immature of me made me lose you...i cherish every moment we had together

i'd always love you~

Lifeless without you

Last night din sleep AT ALL...my eyes were open wide wide...tried to sleep but end up seeing back the photos we took...i din eat also...no appetite...at school when recess...go sit under the hot sun...cuz i'm feeling cold...after sitting 20minutes under the sun...i din sweat at all...sigh...everything's just not right without you

All that left is memories :'(

Thank you Sim Yuen...for being with me for a year plus...you showed your love to me...cared for me...be with me when i'm alone...you gave your every 1st time to me...but all i did was breaking your heart times and times again...i'm useless...sorry for bugging you these few days...begging for forgiveness...you gave me alot of chances but i never appreciate it...its all my fault...i brought this up...i shall not regret what i've did to you...Edmund you're 1 lucky guy...treat her perfectly...and you can feel that you're the luckiest guy in the world...if you ever hurt her...i wont let you go...sigh...i know you wont...only brainless ppl like me would hurt her...her heart is very very fragile...she can cry very very easily too...surprise her more...she can smile whole day for just 1 surprise...well you're so much sweeter and caring than i am...suffering from insomnia...every night almost 4am only can sleep but have to wake up at 6am de...after what happened tonight...i dont think that i can sleep anymore...and and...i even jump down few times from those monkey bars and bang my head to the wall...i cant feel any pain...but my heart is freaking pain...i cant stand it...i feel like throwing it away...i wish you two will last forever...thx Sim...thx for being so caring for me...i cant promise you but i'll try...*forceful smile* thx for the cd...and everything...i'll treasure it well







Mui...thx for cheering me up...i'm sorry if i fuhin you when you were cheering me up...but that time i was so depressing...dont worry bout me k? i'll be fine...just need some time...*forceful smile again*


and friends...i love you...everyone...gor...jie...mui...and my twinny...and *you*

Yeah (love is pain)dedicated to all my broken hearted people. One’s old flame, just scream my name and I’m so sick of love songs. Yeah hate damn love songs. Memento of ours… Lies!

A late night and rain falling down. I bring you back from my memories. I promised myself I would be fine without you, but I can’t help it. I take in liquor which I don’t even know how to handle trying to fill my empty heart. A day without you is too long. I pray that I may please forget you (that’s a lie).

Without you happiness cannot be found in me. I can’t even shed any tears. I don’t want to live anymore.

Yeah, this is bullshit, it’s pissing me off. I’m going crazy in thoughts of you. I want to see you, but I’m being told that I can’t, that it’s all over (I’ll be right there).

I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

I dedicated my all into this song for you (other people probably don’t know). By myself, without anyone knowing. (yeah, those words I said were lies). A loner left in the midst of it all. In my pocket is the breakup letter that’s all wrinkled and folded up in my pocket, hey, (and my habit of calling for you and wondering where you are). I’m gonna change, I’ll laugh everything off from now on.

I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

Oh oh oh oh oh, I hope this is all a dream. Oh oh oh oh oh, because I only add up to this much. Drop that babe, I still can’t forget you. No I don’t think I ever will, even ’til the day I die, yeah. Did the scars I gave you heal? I’m sorry because I never got to do anything for you.

I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I didn’t know, but I know now that I need you. I’m so sorry, but I love you, out of anger. I pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing. I’m so sorry, but I love you, it’s all a lie. I’m so sorry (I’m so sorry), but I love you (I love you more more). I’m so sorry, but I love you, will you leave and forget me slowly, so I can be in pain?

i'm sorry but i love you

Buckcherry - Sorry

Oh I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren’t the same
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

This time I think I’m to blame
It’s harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It’s never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry.
I’m sorry baby.
I’m sorry baby, Yeah.
I’m sorry.

i know its too late

Leona Lewis - Bleeding Love Lyrics

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

 

 

 

my heart will keep bleeding non stop

When You're gone~

Avril Lavigne – When You’re Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I’d need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I’m alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you’re gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you’re gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you’re gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I’ve never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
 
[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I’d do, I’d give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]



 :'(

Which shall I use to suicide??

there's no reason for me to keep living on

This song makes me cry...repeated it for 100+ times :'(

"All You Wanted"

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the time comes
I'd take you away

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah

[x2]
If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

its your favourite song..

Feelings~ this song is exactly how i felt

Time for Miracles Lyrics

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just wanna be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes

The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

Baby can you feel it (feel it)
You know I can hear it (hear it)
So can you feel me feel you....

You know it's time....

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love

You know I ain't giving up on us
You know I ain't giving up on

Oh I ain't giving up on us

 

 

 

i'm not giving up...i'll wait

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSIEEEEEE!!!

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN TO MY "so called" TWINNIE

(LAU CHI YIN)

She has been a GREAT cousie all these years...best thing bout us is we never fight...not once =D

hmmm...now i realize that its been long we haven't take any pictures...the last time was...erm...4 or 5 years old? 

well...here are some old pics of us :) *Chiyin pls dont kill me* hehehe

  this pic blurr...not nice...below there's more ^^

thats her pacifier if i'm not wrong...i snatch it away from her mouth...LOL!!

THE NEXT PHOTO IS EPIC LOL!!!!

OMG!!! I'M SO!!! *speechless* i'm so "hao" btw ~.~

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can say its my fav pic of me and soh poh yin...

     

aren't we cute?? we looked alike dont we?? =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! ^^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUI!!!!

20th of December~ the day my soh mui

(CHANG YEE CHENG)

celebrate her SWEET 16th Birthday =)

although i din celebrate with her...but nvm...i went to give her her presents ^^

glad that she likes it...her *ahem* red teddy bear *ahem* =D

stay cute and happy oh mui :) hehehe

the 2 very soh of us ^^

once again~

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN!!!

 

L? hahahaha

School holidays are bored~ doing dumb stuffs =P

hantu~

again hantu...hahaha

(old pic)

oh~ and btw...

looks angelish?? both are actually so devilish =.=ll *naughty*

cousie~

*ciaozz*

Guess who's singing?? =P

My Birthday ^^ at K-Box

Lazy wanna tell so I'll just simplify it... ~.~


Morning after work then went home get ready...after that took taxi to Beacon Point to have a lil celebrate with lao po cuz her mum dont let her go anywhere *IDIOT!!!* so I'll just have to go BC to see her...had a lil surprise from her :)

my lil cake...SWEET LIKE HELL!! but i struggled to finish it =P

took pics before going Jusco

My personal waitress =D

After that went Jusco with mui...reached there gathered with Tony Karfu and Kent in kopitiam...waited for Jing and Kel...then everyone waited for The Superstar to reach a.k.a Sunny...funniest part is he shook hand with mui...LOL!!! went in K-Box and the craziness begins....

blurr.....

crazee-shot~

The retarded crazy gang...lol

while walking mui to her car...^^

 

Tiger beer-ing =P

drunk? hahaha...that's Kel sitting on me

gay-ing~

Carlsberg and Tiger...

Drunk sunny...hoho~

peace out~

censored!!

cool specs ~.~

retards...woohoo~

ZZZZ!! Sunny edited that

 

geng chao Sunny..

 Pose pose pose....

Perfect candid shot...woohoo~

made by Sunny...thx thx =D

wootz~

last 2 pic...

last pic...

Thx you guys...its really a fun birthday ^^

Happy Birthday to Me!! =D

2 Months Anniversary ^^

30th Of November...our 2 months anniversary together...i love you so much...even though we din't really celebrate it together properly...but its still alright...at least we did see each other today...hehehehe...bought her 2 roses...pink and red...its 2 months anniversary so i bought 2 roses only...sorry lao po :( couldn't do anything sweeter to you...i will next time ^^ walked from Jusco to Beacon Point (place that she work) with the roses...reached there...gave her a surprises...hehehe...then when her lunch time...we sat and ate together...


My love towards you is increasing every second...and it will never stop increasing...i wanna spend my life with you...grow old with you...i cherish every moment when we're together

Once Again...Happy 2 Months Anniversary!!!

<3 Claudia Leong Syuen Ye <3

Lazy~

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Too Lazy To Update~

Lalalalala~

 

WOOOOOHOOOOOOOO~~~~

EXAM IS OOOOOOOOOVERRRRRRRRRR!!!

Damn Syok and Happy Day ^^

1st of all i'm happy cuz lao po is came back from Genting today...wheeeee~ miss her so much er...din message much for the last 3 days :( but she came back lu~ ^^ hehe :)

2nd is today whole gang went hang out at Parade...wuuu~ damn alot of ppl...but alot that i dunno wan cuz they're from IIS...morning in school whole gang crap crap crap like hell cuz morning no exam...only after recess 1 paper and thats SIVIK!! school ends at 12.10PM...followed Tony's car to parade...4 of us (Sunny...Kel....Jing and Me) squeezed together in the car...hahaha...reached parade then went starbucks to have a drink while waiting for William~ saw Joel and his IIS gang outside Starbucks...somehow Joel became fatter but its the same old retard Joel Oon ~.~ll....then we finally met our (Kel...Jing...Me) BOSS!! KENT~ yeng sui nya...hahaha...he's funny...and sunny went crazy together with him...now those 2 damn close d...calling each other husband and wife =.=ll William came after that...went food court eat and chit chatted...then Edwin Wong came at 3PM...went buy wallet for Tony for his birthday present...after that all saying wanna go K-Box but all end up walking around and went Kopitiam Junction for lunch...Sunny and William talk bout AH GUA there...we called William The AH-GUA-HOLIC!! lol...eat till 4PM+ like that and Jing went home...William said wanna go seek for ghost cuz he said in parade those alley there got ghost....he showed us a video his friend recorded...a white cloth flying around...i saw it but not sure izit real or not...so William suggested that he wanna go see also...1st we went to the alley there but there's ntg there...me and William walked infront and THAT SUNNY AT THE BACK THERE ACT HE SAW GHOST...HE SCREAMED AND RUN!! all thought what happen so we all screamed along and run...then he said he saw ntg...wanna scared us ni...ZZZ...then William said that ghost is not at the place we looked for at the 1st time...he said it was at the carpark basement there...Kent join us cuz he went to walked around with his friend Yu Wen...met with him there William ask him to follow us to seek for ghost...basement there all scream and run before reaching that alley door...lol...William was like WTF cuz he was the only one walking infront...so I went with him inside the alley there...we wanted to go upstairs but that Sunny was trying to close the damn door @.@...so me and William din went up to seek for the ghost...hahaha...all laugh till stomachache...somehow I really stomachache...maybe cuz i ate 1 slice of lemon at kopitiam there...William gotta go 1st cuz he's going Tualang to eat seafood...lucky fella...Kel went wait for his mum when i'm in the toilet doing business ~.~ before Sunny went home...he and Kent play play like that wanted to kiss...LOL!!! suddenly his brother came...awww~ missed the gay kissing action...hahaha...Kent and Tony wait with me till the taxi come...so damn long la....thx man....

oh ya...and and and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TONY WONG CHAN WAI!!! 16 lu... =D